有時候有時候

還沒好好的感受

雪花綻放的氣候

我們一起顫抖

會更明白什麼是溫柔

還沒跟你牽著手

走過荒蕪的沙丘

可能從此以後學會珍惜

天長和地久

有時候有時候

我會相信一切有盡頭

相聚離開都有時候

沒有什麼會永垂不朽

可是我有時候

寧願選擇留戀不放手

等到風景都看透

也許你會陪我看細水長流

完全爱上了这首歌

也许不是我放不下

而是

我选择了留恋不放手

昨天

跑了两场会议

啊

都不怎么顺利似的

算了吧

尽力了

发生了一件很奇怪的事

去和回时都坐跟一样的人

哈哈

还是两个双胞胎

而且她们还认识我的朋友们

可却都不认识我

我当然也不认识她们啦

哈哈

I don't know whether you're still reading my blog or not 

but after what I've told you yesterday 

I did some thoughts on the whole thing 

and myself as well 

Well

my life is indeed boring and really lifeless

but I try to appreciate every single opportunity given to me

and tried to achieve them 

just like what i thought when we first started.

I didn't regret trying tho 

I know you have a lot of defenses 

But have you ever, ever,

for once,

stop defending yourself with excuses and those feelings 

that you said you have 

and just think, 

think of what have you achieved in the past 20 years 

it's real funny you know 

looking back at our conversation 

you said you look at my like a lil brother rather than someone you could rely on 

well I think I'm better of being an elder one instead 

Couldn't imagine what would you think and do 

if I'd let you know the truth behind all of both of us stuffs.

hahh.

darling you really need to think and decide

and never ever tell me you're old already 

cause if you still can take life for granted 

then you're never old 

cause that stuffs for the young 

your life's really enjoyable and relax you know

well at least you can still stay at the home watch drama for whole day?

hahaha

what I think you should do right now 

is to stop, 

Stop feeling sad and stuffs, stop thinking,

start doing

You're still young, really 

you don't have to take life's opportunity cost into account sometimes

cause you knew that there're still gonna be 

shit tones of people there for you if you fuck things up 

which you always does 

sorry, didn't mean and not gonna give any explanation still

So 

Got a package while writing this post,

it's an interactive magazine from Academy of Art University,

one of the oldest and most prestigious art university in the world 

which i got an offer like 2 years ago.

They still didn't wanna give up persuading me to go over tho

HAHAHAHA. 

amazing. 'nuff said. 

But 

this new generation of magazine is really amazing 

it somehow rekindled my most fundamental 

interest in art, modelling, fashion, and animation

which made me fell so deep in love to them 

when i first started all these shit 

maybe i got bored.

nope 

i got bored. 

i'll think again tho. HAHA

Ok

have to get off to prepare to go qb 

study study study 

work work work

life life life 

 p/s: sis, i'm still amazed by qing xing. HAHA