Heart Station

It's either you're really special
or i'm really weird
or both.

Guess you've made that clear enough.

I'm always a horoscope person
aquarius and gemini uhh

When we're together,
I've always been trying to give you that sense of security.
when i don't even have that myself
nor do i know what's that feelings

Maybe it's just not meant to be

Today's exactly two months
Happy two months?
I am still reminiscing
all the stuffs we've done and all the things you've said
all the face times
all the silly promises.



Haha
I'm a dumb
for giving in first

Stay Gold

So yeah,

wo de jie jie wen wen amanda shun man binti lau 

sudah balik UUM.

Time to get back up all the slacked stuffs

Wasted kinda lots of time doing unnecessary stuffs.

*don't worry sis, not yours* 

She attended her first morning meeting. 

hahah.

heyy, 

sleep earlier next time k? 

Don't take minutes till halfway dream d =P

Twitter... 

Hmm.. 

Maybe you're right, 

I'm not okay with time management.

or i should say

i plan stuffs last minute 

but i would prefer to go with the reactor approach. 

I'm not saying you're wrong and i totally reject your thoughts

that's true 

haha

i guess i'll have to tune myself a lil

I think

I'll have to stop playing arcades 

and speeding for some time. 

Something's wrong with me

It's gonna be a great day ahead

I'm going to hike the penang hill

and 

jump. LOL

jkjk.

I miss coffees

I miss rainbows

I miss chocolates

I miss you.

Starry starry night

Deaths, deaths everywhere. 

I'm really sorry for those whose friends/family member passed away these two days

Whether they suicide or not

this is not something we would be glad of. 

Rest in peace mates

Sis, cheer up k? 

So, it's 4.10 in the morning 

and i'm still rushing documents and devising strategies for the company movement

what am i doing right now

i should be sleeping

or just came back from clubs 

or doing something else. 

not what old farts would do.

I'm really, really old eh?

I just came back from movie

alone 

hahaha

met her just now 

i think i just practically repeat everything 

i've said 

countless times. 

i don't know what else could i do. 

or would i do. 

But one thing i'm sure is 

I'm really, really enraged

I'm so sick of everything sometimes

I feel that there're a lot of potentially bad stuffs

are revolving around me 

i couldn't fathom this.

why can't i just have the good things to stay? 

Life uhh...

Meeting in like 3 hours. 

I'm going back to work now. 

Ciaoz. 

Stress, stress everywhere

I think I live a rather unfortunate life. 

ugh

Got a good news in the morning

Panelpoint is finally meeting us. 

but 

that good news atmosphere didn't even lasted an hour 

then all the bad ones came rushing at me. 

Can you leave me and my family alone? 

I'm serious. 

what the fuck do you want from me. 

Do you enjoy doing all these right now? 

And, 

dad, mum,

im really overwhelmed with all the negatives already

can you just leave me with some better one instead? 

i can't fathom all these. 

really. 

maybe i should just fucking give up. 

or not. 

nah 

i won't give up, or not. 

i think i won't

or 

it would be rather pointless. 

tho everything are pointless now 

I saw your blog. 

ah, 

missing someone else? 

not bad ah

got new target already?

haha

All of these were ridiculous

it's rendering me breathless. 

i wanna stop

i can't... 

sigh. 

maybe i should be strong. 

i think i could be stronger. 

hello self, 

you don't have to treat everyone nice

and you certainly 

shouldn't simply give your heart over to someone else easily

for you could 

get hurt 

fucking easy. 

remember you're very, very vulnerable. 

lastly,
you are never something to her.
you're just nothing. or
someone that she used to rely on. 

Rethink

Lazying lazying lazying 

lazy day

read - sleep - read - sleep 

that's basically how i spent 3/4 of the day today.

haha

and then 

Wei Loon facebook message-ed me if i wanna join sis and another friend for supper

that's how i get to know another new friend

Recent life were all about meeting new friends 

forgetting the sorrows and listen to new thoughts 

new life perhaps 

but still hectic as usual. 

i think i've got used to the pace already. 

Hello sis

this time you come back eh timing very right lo 

i don't know how to thank you. 

really. 

=D

诶，

我永远都愿意当个听众，

我知道你想要从新开始，

就尽量让他们明白好吗？

我都会在这儿

Don't give up,

Don't stop halfway

Keep walking

Keep moving forward 

Follow the flow, 

listen to the pitch 

This is what you thought me

I have faith in you 

Remember i'm your number 1 blog reader k

hahaha

最近都爱上了方大同的歌

哈哈

Study study tomorrow

cut hair 

cut spending 

cut coffees 

cut cut cut cut cut 

everything cut

Some photos to recoup what's happening lately.

HAHAA 

Hmm...

So yeah

about today 

not much heh 

slept till quite late cause i pulled an all-nighter. 

ugh 

study plan failed,

didn't really went as planned. 

ah 

I know what's going on...

but hey,

if you don't have a choice, 

then why not just follow it? 

It's not how you planned, 

but maybe it's meant to be? 

=\

well at least that's a degree?

you should really think twice you know? 

I'll be here if you need any advises. 

Don't think too much 

everything'll be fine. 

有時候有時候

還沒好好的感受

雪花綻放的氣候

我們一起顫抖

會更明白什麼是溫柔

還沒跟你牽著手

走過荒蕪的沙丘

可能從此以後學會珍惜

天長和地久

有時候有時候

我會相信一切有盡頭

相聚離開都有時候

沒有什麼會永垂不朽

可是我有時候

寧願選擇留戀不放手

等到風景都看透

也許你會陪我看細水長流

完全爱上了这首歌

也许不是我放不下

而是

我选择了留恋不放手

昨天

跑了两场会议

啊

都不怎么顺利似的

算了吧

尽力了

发生了一件很奇怪的事

去和回时都坐跟一样的人

哈哈

还是两个双胞胎

而且她们还认识我的朋友们

可却都不认识我

我当然也不认识她们啦

哈哈

I don't know whether you're still reading my blog or not 

but after what I've told you yesterday 

I did some thoughts on the whole thing 

and myself as well 

Well

my life is indeed boring and really lifeless

but I try to appreciate every single opportunity given to me

and tried to achieve them 

just like what i thought when we first started.

I didn't regret trying tho 

I know you have a lot of defenses 

But have you ever, ever,

for once,

stop defending yourself with excuses and those feelings 

that you said you have 

and just think, 

think of what have you achieved in the past 20 years 

it's real funny you know 

looking back at our conversation 

you said you look at my like a lil brother rather than someone you could rely on 

well I think I'm better of being an elder one instead 

Couldn't imagine what would you think and do 

if I'd let you know the truth behind all of both of us stuffs.

hahh.

darling you really need to think and decide

and never ever tell me you're old already 

cause if you still can take life for granted 

then you're never old 

cause that stuffs for the young 

your life's really enjoyable and relax you know

well at least you can still stay at the home watch drama for whole day?

hahaha

what I think you should do right now 

is to stop, 

Stop feeling sad and stuffs, stop thinking,

start doing

You're still young, really 

you don't have to take life's opportunity cost into account sometimes

cause you knew that there're still gonna be 

shit tones of people there for you if you fuck things up 

which you always does 

sorry, didn't mean and not gonna give any explanation still

So 

Got a package while writing this post,

it's an interactive magazine from Academy of Art University,

one of the oldest and most prestigious art university in the world 

which i got an offer like 2 years ago.

They still didn't wanna give up persuading me to go over tho

HAHAHAHA. 

amazing. 'nuff said. 

But 

this new generation of magazine is really amazing 

it somehow rekindled my most fundamental 

interest in art, modelling, fashion, and animation

which made me fell so deep in love to them 

when i first started all these shit 

maybe i got bored.

nope 

i got bored. 

i'll think again tho. HAHA

Ok

have to get off to prepare to go qb 

study study study 

work work work

life life life 

 p/s: sis, i'm still amazed by qing xing. HAHA