Stress, stress everywhere

I think I live a rather unfortunate life. 

ugh

Got a good news in the morning

Panelpoint is finally meeting us. 

but 

that good news atmosphere didn't even lasted an hour 

then all the bad ones came rushing at me. 

Can you leave me and my family alone? 

I'm serious. 

what the fuck do you want from me. 

Do you enjoy doing all these right now? 

And, 

dad, mum,

im really overwhelmed with all the negatives already

can you just leave me with some better one instead? 

i can't fathom all these. 

really. 

maybe i should just fucking give up. 

or not. 

nah 

i won't give up, or not. 

i think i won't

or 

it would be rather pointless. 

tho everything are pointless now 

I saw your blog. 

ah, 

missing someone else? 

not bad ah

got new target already?

haha

All of these were ridiculous

it's rendering me breathless. 

i wanna stop

i can't... 

sigh. 

maybe i should be strong. 

i think i could be stronger. 

hello self, 

you don't have to treat everyone nice

and you certainly 

shouldn't simply give your heart over to someone else easily

for you could 

get hurt 

fucking easy. 

remember you're very, very vulnerable. 

lastly,
you are never something to her.
you're just nothing. or
someone that she used to rely on.