Hmm...

So yeah

about today 

not much heh 

slept till quite late cause i pulled an all-nighter. 

ugh 

study plan failed,

didn't really went as planned. 

ah 

I know what's going on...

but hey,

if you don't have a choice, 

then why not just follow it? 

It's not how you planned, 

but maybe it's meant to be? 

=\

well at least that's a degree?

you should really think twice you know? 

I'll be here if you need any advises. 

Don't think too much 

everything'll be fine. 

有時候有時候

還沒好好的感受

雪花綻放的氣候

我們一起顫抖

會更明白什麼是溫柔

還沒跟你牽著手

走過荒蕪的沙丘

可能從此以後學會珍惜

天長和地久

有時候有時候

我會相信一切有盡頭

相聚離開都有時候

沒有什麼會永垂不朽

可是我有時候

寧願選擇留戀不放手

等到風景都看透

也許你會陪我看細水長流

完全爱上了这首歌

也许不是我放不下

而是

我选择了留恋不放手

昨天

跑了两场会议

啊

都不怎么顺利似的

算了吧

尽力了

发生了一件很奇怪的事

去和回时都坐跟一样的人

哈哈

还是两个双胞胎

而且她们还认识我的朋友们

可却都不认识我

我当然也不认识她们啦

哈哈

I don't know whether you're still reading my blog or not 

but after what I've told you yesterday 

I did some thoughts on the whole thing 

and myself as well 

Well

my life is indeed boring and really lifeless

but I try to appreciate every single opportunity given to me

and tried to achieve them 

just like what i thought when we first started.

I didn't regret trying tho 

I know you have a lot of defenses 

But have you ever, ever,

for once,

stop defending yourself with excuses and those feelings 

that you said you have 

and just think, 

think of what have you achieved in the past 20 years 

it's real funny you know 

looking back at our conversation 

you said you look at my like a lil brother rather than someone you could rely on 

well I think I'm better of being an elder one instead 

Couldn't imagine what would you think and do 

if I'd let you know the truth behind all of both of us stuffs.

hahh.

darling you really need to think and decide

and never ever tell me you're old already 

cause if you still can take life for granted 

then you're never old 

cause that stuffs for the young 

your life's really enjoyable and relax you know

well at least you can still stay at the home watch drama for whole day?

hahaha

what I think you should do right now 

is to stop, 

Stop feeling sad and stuffs, stop thinking,

start doing

You're still young, really 

you don't have to take life's opportunity cost into account sometimes

cause you knew that there're still gonna be 

shit tones of people there for you if you fuck things up 

which you always does 

sorry, didn't mean and not gonna give any explanation still

So 

Got a package while writing this post,

it's an interactive magazine from Academy of Art University,

one of the oldest and most prestigious art university in the world 

which i got an offer like 2 years ago.

They still didn't wanna give up persuading me to go over tho

HAHAHAHA. 

amazing. 'nuff said. 

But 

this new generation of magazine is really amazing 

it somehow rekindled my most fundamental 

interest in art, modelling, fashion, and animation

which made me fell so deep in love to them 

when i first started all these shit 

maybe i got bored.

nope 

i got bored. 

i'll think again tho. HAHA

Ok

have to get off to prepare to go qb 

study study study 

work work work

life life life 

 p/s: sis, i'm still amazed by qing xing. HAHA

Day One Entry: Oct 28, 2012

Time flies, memories stays

Thank you sis,

You really made my day. Haha. 

And of course some of the those awesome friends of yours. 

Hehe

Ya la I know that you're trying to wake me up 

And cheer me up. 

I'm trying. Alright? 

Haha. 

Good night. 

Time to get back to work now. 

=)

Jellyfish sucks. 

Good life

Everything's gonna be alright,

We don't even have to try 

It's always a good life 

=)

Ok fuck that. 

I'm tired of pretending to be happy d. 

Thank you so much sis. 

I'm really happy these few days. 

And your friends were really delighting. 

Everything don't have to be complicated. 

Really,

This is really a good life. 

So here I am,

With them,

My new found friends. 

In her room,

Discussing musics, interest, techs,

Sharing our own opinions and stuffs.

Ah,

Damn it. 

I really wished to learn piano

That's gonna be that one regret that I'll never be able to accomplish. 

And 

Don't think she's still reading my blog already. 

And twitter?

Haha. 

The whole point of her twitter is that she could share what she wanted to say to me,

Only me, that's why... 

Maybe it's just me,

Ok. It's just me 

But I don't care. 

I shouldve been retarding for like so long already 

To be honest 

It's really hard to move on. 

And I can't move on 

That's the fact. 

Sigh. 

You're really one of a kind 

Out of the 7 billion homo sapiens out there 

Why you? Why me?

=(

Meeting this morning
Headache.
So headache
And stressed
Ugh
Ma de

I wish you're here.
Or at least
You could be here.

Baby Good Night

I think it was the decision of above,

to let me know the reason behind all those. 

baby, 

it's not both of us fell in the same shit 

it's just some wrongdoings of others. 

but i guess it doesn't matter anymore. 

cause 

it'd never be this way if i knew it earlier. 

But 

i guess that, 

i'm pretty fine with this

yeah

just beware of people around you

greed can really kill you. 

somehow, someway. 

Maybe,

knowing the truth finally 

made me felt a lot relieved. 

mhmm 

it definitely does. 

i felt much better right now 

they said love is blind, 

oh baby 

you're so blind. 

夢想再大 

你還是看不見我 

愛的再深 你還是愛自己多 

你不會懂 傷口真的會痛 

你心裏的宇宙 我不在任何角落 

世界再大 你還是原地不動 

說的再多 

你從來也沒聽懂

Staying is no longer an option

I don't matter anymore. 

只是会觉得不值得，

不知

如果让我早一点知道那些事情的话

你也许还会留在我身旁

也许天真的是我吧。

他真的很厉害。

我输了。

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Hai sis, 

damn you -.- 

The ink won't get off. 

Thank you so much for the night ok? 

Nahhh 

I won't emo liao 

you're right tho, 

at some point. 

I'll reconsider of what you've said. 

"谨慎小心，待人和蔼可亲，

外冷内热的梅花鹿做事谨慎小心，

很少鲁莽行事，

这类型的人有完美主义倾向，

自尊心又强，

最瞧不起懦弱的表现，

更不喜欢让别人看到自己的缺点，

有时外表看似冷漠，其实却有颗温柔坦诚的心，

是慢热型的人，

偶尔也会被周遭的人或事感动得落泪，

也不排除歇斯底里发泄情绪的时刻。"
真的吧，其实还蛮准的
结果
就成了人家伤害的对象。
哈哈

關於愛情，我們永遠都是新手...

留下一些帶走一些，改變一些被改變一些
而學不會的，也許是你最堅持或最難割捨的那些

總是學不會 再聰明一點
記得自我保護 必要時候講些 善意謊言
總是學不會 真愛也有現實面
不是誰情願 就能夠解決

dayumm

You know what,

You're really selfish. 

but 

ik hou van je 

ik neem je mee, neem ye mee op reis

That's all. 

baby good night.

从新开始

从今天起

从新开始

什么都不理不管了

啊

想继续学荷兰语

还有韩语

既然买了书就不要浪费掉

哈哈

还有我的德语

其实我还蛮有潜质在语言的方面的嘛

哈哈哈

哈咯姐姐

欢迎回来

我们要去get high! 

LOL! 

还有读书

很多很多买回来的书都放置在一旁

啊

算了，

没有童年没有乐趣的人生

就让它没有吧。

今天起来发现眼睛肿的像鱼丸一样

吓到我一跳

打了只针后好了许多

最近真的很压力

咖啡也喝得特别多

觉也少睡了许多

身体给我个明示吧

看回去

其实你被我影响的也还蛮多的

哈哈

不知到要开心还是伤心好

The first photo you sent me 

The first photo I sent you, haha. 

All of the books here worth at least 3 thousands LOL.

The first design where everything's so different

Final design. Good thing we diverted.  

Don't worry. 

Just reminiscing the past memories.

Everything happened so quick,

Just before the strike of midnight
you said this could be the good life
then you said goodbye.

Haha.

How'd we get here today

Seriously.

But meh, 

What's done cannot be undone. 

I hope we're cleared about 

what both of us are right now

if you still wanna stay in the company

guess it's time for you to come back to work?

Well your boss ain't someone you could mess with at work 

nahh just joking

I'm way too soft-hearted. 

I guess. 

I hope I don't have to repeat these again. 

Oh and,

Hi jane, 

Don't sad le please. 

You need to stay strong k? 

*man up* 

Haha

Come on,

you knew i tried a lot to make you feel better

and you know 

i'm kind of in the same situation as well, 

no,

i'm worse. 

So stop thinking,

cause overthinking only leads to negative results.

That's the modest thought i can give you. 

And that's fucking proven. 

=D

If you still stay like this i'll post up those drawings 

you drew for me 

when we were together. 

HAHAHA 

and yes i have them 

try me. =P

Jolin's new album! 
Okay I'm still her fan. =D
and her lyrics are still
so 
true. 

Okay. 

That's about it 

I guess. 

Well

Unless I would wanna rant more,

which the fuck I don't. 
and damn,
bill came out. 
overspent way too much already. 
fucking hell 
i don't give a damn care. 
LOL
jkjk

Must. Cut. Down. Spending
Must. Cut. Down. Coffees

Day One Entry: Oct 23, 2012

A conversation that sums it all.

I think 

I've reach my limit already.

Maybe it's time.

Good night.