Day One Entry: Oct 28, 2012

Time flies, memories stays

Thank you sis,

You really made my day. Haha. 

And of course some of the those awesome friends of yours. 

Hehe

Ya la I know that you're trying to wake me up 

And cheer me up. 

I'm trying. Alright? 

Haha. 

Good night. 

Time to get back to work now. 

=)

Jellyfish sucks. 

Good life

Everything's gonna be alright,

We don't even have to try 

It's always a good life 

=)

Ok fuck that. 

I'm tired of pretending to be happy d. 

Thank you so much sis. 

I'm really happy these few days. 

And your friends were really delighting. 

Everything don't have to be complicated. 

Really,

This is really a good life. 

So here I am,

With them,

My new found friends. 

In her room,

Discussing musics, interest, techs,

Sharing our own opinions and stuffs.

Ah,

Damn it. 

I really wished to learn piano

That's gonna be that one regret that I'll never be able to accomplish. 

And 

Don't think she's still reading my blog already. 

And twitter?

Haha. 

The whole point of her twitter is that she could share what she wanted to say to me,

Only me, that's why... 

Maybe it's just me,

Ok. It's just me 

But I don't care. 

I shouldve been retarding for like so long already 

To be honest 

It's really hard to move on. 

And I can't move on 

That's the fact. 

Sigh. 

You're really one of a kind 

Out of the 7 billion homo sapiens out there 

Why you? Why me?

=(

Meeting this morning
Headache.
So headache
And stressed
Ugh
Ma de

I wish you're here.
Or at least
You could be here.

Baby Good Night

I think it was the decision of above,

to let me know the reason behind all those. 

baby, 

it's not both of us fell in the same shit 

it's just some wrongdoings of others. 

but i guess it doesn't matter anymore. 

cause 

it'd never be this way if i knew it earlier. 

But 

i guess that, 

i'm pretty fine with this

yeah

just beware of people around you

greed can really kill you. 

somehow, someway. 

Maybe,

knowing the truth finally 

made me felt a lot relieved. 

mhmm 

it definitely does. 

i felt much better right now 

they said love is blind, 

oh baby 

you're so blind. 

夢想再大 

你還是看不見我 

愛的再深 你還是愛自己多 

你不會懂 傷口真的會痛 

你心裏的宇宙 我不在任何角落 

世界再大 你還是原地不動 

說的再多 

你從來也沒聽懂

Staying is no longer an option

I don't matter anymore. 

只是会觉得不值得，

不知

如果让我早一点知道那些事情的话

你也许还会留在我身旁

也许天真的是我吧。

他真的很厉害。

我输了。

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Hai sis, 

damn you -.- 

The ink won't get off. 

Thank you so much for the night ok? 

Nahhh 

I won't emo liao 

you're right tho, 

at some point. 

I'll reconsider of what you've said. 

"谨慎小心，待人和蔼可亲，

外冷内热的梅花鹿做事谨慎小心，

很少鲁莽行事，

这类型的人有完美主义倾向，

自尊心又强，

最瞧不起懦弱的表现，

更不喜欢让别人看到自己的缺点，

有时外表看似冷漠，其实却有颗温柔坦诚的心，

是慢热型的人，

偶尔也会被周遭的人或事感动得落泪，

也不排除歇斯底里发泄情绪的时刻。"
真的吧，其实还蛮准的
结果
就成了人家伤害的对象。
哈哈

關於愛情，我們永遠都是新手...

留下一些帶走一些，改變一些被改變一些
而學不會的，也許是你最堅持或最難割捨的那些

總是學不會 再聰明一點
記得自我保護 必要時候講些 善意謊言
總是學不會 真愛也有現實面
不是誰情願 就能夠解決

dayumm

You know what,

You're really selfish. 

but 

ik hou van je 

ik neem je mee, neem ye mee op reis

That's all. 

baby good night.

从新开始

从今天起

从新开始

什么都不理不管了

啊

想继续学荷兰语

还有韩语

既然买了书就不要浪费掉

哈哈

还有我的德语

其实我还蛮有潜质在语言的方面的嘛

哈哈哈

哈咯姐姐

欢迎回来

我们要去get high! 

LOL! 

还有读书

很多很多买回来的书都放置在一旁

啊

算了，

没有童年没有乐趣的人生

就让它没有吧。

今天起来发现眼睛肿的像鱼丸一样

吓到我一跳

打了只针后好了许多

最近真的很压力

咖啡也喝得特别多

觉也少睡了许多

身体给我个明示吧

看回去

其实你被我影响的也还蛮多的

哈哈

不知到要开心还是伤心好

The first photo you sent me 

The first photo I sent you, haha. 

All of the books here worth at least 3 thousands LOL.

The first design where everything's so different

Final design. Good thing we diverted.  

Don't worry. 

Just reminiscing the past memories.

Everything happened so quick,

Just before the strike of midnight
you said this could be the good life
then you said goodbye.

Haha.

How'd we get here today

Seriously.

But meh, 

What's done cannot be undone. 

I hope we're cleared about 

what both of us are right now

if you still wanna stay in the company

guess it's time for you to come back to work?

Well your boss ain't someone you could mess with at work 

nahh just joking

I'm way too soft-hearted. 

I guess. 

I hope I don't have to repeat these again. 

Oh and,

Hi jane, 

Don't sad le please. 

You need to stay strong k? 

*man up* 

Haha

Come on,

you knew i tried a lot to make you feel better

and you know 

i'm kind of in the same situation as well, 

no,

i'm worse. 

So stop thinking,

cause overthinking only leads to negative results.

That's the modest thought i can give you. 

And that's fucking proven. 

=D

If you still stay like this i'll post up those drawings 

you drew for me 

when we were together. 

HAHAHA 

and yes i have them 

try me. =P

Jolin's new album! 
Okay I'm still her fan. =D
and her lyrics are still
so 
true. 

Okay. 

That's about it 

I guess. 

Well

Unless I would wanna rant more,

which the fuck I don't. 
and damn,
bill came out. 
overspent way too much already. 
fucking hell 
i don't give a damn care. 
LOL
jkjk

Must. Cut. Down. Spending
Must. Cut. Down. Coffees

Day One Entry: Oct 23, 2012

A conversation that sums it all.

I think 

I've reach my limit already.

Maybe it's time.

Good night. 

三点了，

多一下子就要考试了，

其实

真的很紧张

最近都很压力

很忙碌

很衰

结论是

都还蛮倒霉的

不知道

到底做错了什么

真的咯

妈的

我到底是怎么了？

也许是上天要试验我吧，

要这样子想才能，

不然真的是够悲观了

离开就离开吧

反正我没有对不起我自己

从开始就说好了

也许是

投入了许多

改变得连我自己都认不得自己了

算了吧

努力过就算了

公司已经够忙了

衰也够衰了

真的不应该继续这样子

诶， 

你要怎样就怎样吧

开心就好。

拍手给你，

给你那打死不联络得精神

还有

那恐怖得善变能力。

让我大开眼界了

我真的不应该这样容易相信人了

哈，

真的是害死我自己

也许

感情这方面真的是谁先认真谁就先输了。

真的有想过回英国

也许我在那边无忧无虑的生活

才会让我真的开心

可是还是算了吧

我有我的目标

我还有支持我的人

姐，你说对吗？哈哈

谢谢你骂醒了我

还有一个很特别的人

淑娟啊淑娟，

怎么这次你跟我都掉进了一样的坑了啊

哈哈

妈的我们还真有够倒霉。

就当作成长吧

是的

我还是觉得思想>年龄

好了，

牢骚完了，

继续作最后的冲刺吧

刘亦峻，

你要坚强加油！

你还有很多东西要你亲自去做的

妈的不可以这样没用。

希望等下考试

顺利闯关！

Teehee! 

deja vu?

nahh 

What's next.

I think I, 

should start to get used to being selfish, 

should start to get used to live alone, 

should start to not depend on someone else, 

should start to love myself. 

You, 

ran into my world, 

took everything from me, 

and step away from me. 

All the stuffs you've done, 

rendered me helpless, restless and hopeless. 

I miss it when everything used to be simple, 

when it's just you and me in front of the phone,

I just can't get over you... 

I felt so useless right now, 

especially when i needed your support the most. 

Sigh. 

I will still learn Korean, 

I will still go to Korea, 

and Blue Reef, 

and I wanna realize all the pinky promises we have made. 

All the bad things seems to crash landed on me lately.. 

I really wish that you're here to face them with me. 

"I wanna share everything with you" 

This is the first promise you made to me. 

Is this still valid? 

I miss you, but I know I must stop myself from doing that,

from now on at least. 

I feel so devastated right now... 

And yet everything to you seems so easy... 

Subsidiary company registration failed, 

examinations failed, 

relationship failed, 

parents failed, 

Everything chose to stop working at this very moment, 

It's horrendous 

I don't know how to accept them at one time. 

I feel so breathless.
I feel so vulnerable.