Bankrupt

Officially bankrupt. 

it is the first time in my life. 

For real, i'm broke. 

Had a huge debate, or rather fight everyone 

in the house and walla.

i am officially cut off from financial backup 

and everything 

every shit. 

thanks dad and mum 

thanks uncle

i know you would be more happy if 

i get some mainstream mediocre certification

and go work at some mediocre company 

getting 2.5k salary every month 

do the same thing everyday 

repeat it everyday 

and then live a boring life 

and die

.

I'm sorry, 

I couldn't stand it anymore

I've live my past life listening 

following 

and going every single instructions 

and arrangements you have prepared for me

I have no childhood life because of this. 

Some people search through their lives 

wanting to be able to do something they really liked,

and most of them failed doing so. 

I don't wanna walk the same path. 

It's so hard to find something i really liked 

and am so determined in making it happen 

I am not going to give it up

I couldn't accept your decision

Yes i might be a disappointment to you 

but 

in 50, no, 30 years later 

i will look back and still be proud of myself today

for fighting for something i liked 

even if i failed. 

i will have no regrets, because i have tried my best. 

like the saying goes, you only live once. 

so if not now then, when?