Fairy tales

Spoiler, this is really really long 

but i have a confession to make. =D

i don't always read fairy tales

but i did, however 

believed in happy ever after. 

It's fast 

It's unpredictable

but i caught it

and i've no idea what to do now

Ever since i let her came into my life

i've been really, really cared about her 

even after she left just like this 

the usual everyday routines

i'm still hanging to these until today

you know what

if you're reading this

i applause for you 

for succeeding in learning how to make someone 

so vulnerable 

and smash him into pieces.

yeah

i really mean it

i know you're famous 

you're no lack of guys 

or the prince candidates that you get to pick from

well 

good luck with that 

really. 

I just want to say these once and for all

and i'll never repeat again

I'm really stupid 

for letting you come into my life

not knowing anything else about you 

especially after i just ended a 5 years 6 months 

betrayed relationship

Everything's so perfect to me

from your sweet texts

the way you care about me

how you can wake up 6.30 in the morning 

just to remind me to take my med 

your sweet empty promises that you never make one true 

those photos of your beaten up face that really enraged and upset me 

not to mention totally opened my heart out 

for one moment of thought 

i'd promised myself to make sure you'd never ever get hurt by someone else 

again and i'd trust you with full of my heart

until how 

you went from sweet to cold 

to really not giving any fuck 

and not taking me serious

and last but not least

left me when i needed you most 

This is to you

Thank you 

It's just 2 months 

but the stuffs you'd made me felt 

are definitely no less than the 5 years marathon i've just been through with it.

No don't worry

i'm not blaming anyone

i'm the dumb one

i accept that fact

you made me realize that 

sometimes 

lies can be so beautiful 

even tho i know that there's so much distinct difference between both of us 

hahaha

I'm finally moving on i guess

thanks to those drinking moments with myself 

fake wine tasting time just to make myself drunk

and yes i'm typing this post with a 82' Château Mouton Rothschild

I just wanna prove a point 

no matter whether you'd regret or not 

i'm telling you this

you just lose yourself a great guy

and fuck age 

that concept of time should be of a mechanism to push yourself to do more 

and harder so that you won't regret when you realize you don't have 

the time to do that anymore. Plato said this.

ask yourself

what have you achieved in this age of yours.

and you're using this to limit yourself to try more?

If you're not taking chance then what the hell are you even doing here?

Thank you for the memories

both painful and sweet 

Like Chia chun said 

i'll always be that helplessly romantic guy 

that will always get bashed out badly 

maybe she's just on her way as well 

i just need to give her some time. 

To my beloved sis

i'm really glad that you're back to normal right now 

you're one of the most cheerful person i've ever met 

and this is the main reason why i'd like to talk to you 

please don't ruin that pretty side of you alright? 

and that girl, is she the one who you gave her the Stitch?

hahh

and fuck yes,

LML =P

 Good night world

=)

Headstart

This post

is dedicated to my beloved sis

chun how

wah loon 

and my dad. 

Thank you guys

for being here with me 

during the ups and downs

Ch, you're right

 i should really tune myself up and stuffs

ma leh

cannot so feed. haha.

I've been trying too hard to impress 

until it became a bad habit of mine

you're right

i should behave like myself, my true self

humble humble 

I'm so sorry for the really awful behavior

I've just found some new really awesome friends

and i don't wanna fuck things up again.

So yeah. 

Hello wen wen amanda binti lau 

i don't know what happened recently 

but this is the first time i saw you 

in the 'emo state'

Cheer up okay? 

Everything will be alright

maybe not today, but eventually. 

What I really think right now is that 

it would be rather boring if your life 

is all smooth and round 

so fate decide to bring some excitement in

haha

I'm all over 

all around the world.

LML

*ps, it's Love My Life this time.
ahha

Hungover

I got a hangover. 

so bad.

Been really stupid lately. 

And I lost my money and credit card there. 

ugh. 

i'm so sorry dad for the troubles.

It's been really long since i last got into such havoc

like really long. 

有人说，借酒消愁愁更愁

对了一半

我觉得

我真的很想暂时逃避全部问题

我清醒时做不到

唯有在这种时候

给自己一个

放肆发泄的理由

醒来后

依然还是要面对一样的心情

一样的问题

可至少我发泄了后

让自己有多一些继续让自己压抑的空间

我不想要找人诉苦

想找却没有人

有人却不想讲

其实

想找一个能真正聆听你诉苦的人

真的很难

所以我放弃了

我觉得很累了

还是

继续假装开心会让自己更好些

I've stop texting her.

The urge to do that is really strong 

She really..

I'm really sentimental

I remember back then when you're here with me

how you make me feel complete 

and now i'm left alone

ugh. 

i wish i could live without someone else. 

i tried to give my best to everyone 

but sometimes these made me realizes that 

no i don't have to do that 

and i would not get back the same thing 

*slap slap*

Wake up wake up. 

Yi Jun, remember that you're strong 

and you just have to be good at what you're good at 

and fuck the world 

you're the extraordinary one. 

<3 

How it should be

I guess

it's just me. 

I've been telling myself and other people 

how fine i am 

but the truth is 

everyone moved on except me. 

I find myself doing the same exact thing over 

and over 

and over over 

again, again and again. 

I should really start to live by myself 

i'm just .. 

ugh

i just want someone to be there when i need one. 

sigh

two post in a day

i'm really dumb. 

胡思乱想？

最近都很忙

每天都过得还蛮忙下

真的很难的

昨晚和今天都能陪些朋友们

浪费些时间，

做些正常人做得东西

今天认识了很多新朋友 

很开心一下

可今晚又一毛了 

也许朋友们讲得对

我的心真的软
也许根本不需要对别人好
根本做回之前的我就可以了
至少我得到我要得东西
就会开心点吧

不要去想了

I'm back! =D

Ah, 

moved back to marina bay was kinda good 

been hiatus on blog for a few days 

cause of stupid tmnet which literally cut off my internet 

by 'mistake' 

yeah... right.... 

*sarcasm*

So i'm back from KL. 

Meeting went surprising well 

and now here's the headache part 

Business contracts, feasibility reports, laws,

finance reports and prediction schedules

wtf

 so much to do, 

so little time. 

I love going to KL actually 

i learn a lot and i see things at a different perspectives every time i went there 

and come back. haha

well..

the only downside is that 

my house has no internet connection, and what's worse? 

no cellular signal at all either. 

wow.

unimaginable and unbelievable. haha

Alright

have to ciaoz for sleep 

goede nacht 

Flavor of Life

So here am I, 

sitting alone in Starbucks Sunway Pyramid

It's the last day i'm gonna stay here

Meeting with Panelpoint went surprisingly well 

Met straight with the Managing Director

Used elevator pitch 

and he was impressed 

=P

He said my presentation skills was shockingly good at my age

guess Youth Jam time helped a lot at this. 

Bought a hell loads of Marks & Spencer's cookies. 

hahha 

and did some shopping as well 

I guess you're right 

we're never the same 

you'll always be facebook and i'll always be twitter

just a thought 

what's the point finding the same one like you? 

nah whatever. 

you claimed you'd do everything you couldn't 

ha 

hilarious. 

forget it. 

if there's one thing i could do 

i would stop all the running thoughts in you. 

or me 

or both of us. 

or not. 

Alright 

time to go back to psychology. 

ps: something interested happened yesterday

i did some random talk to a lady in the LRT 

and she asked for my phone number 

HAHA 

wtf. she's 21. 

but meh 

sis, age's never a problem. 

another but,

she's not my type

hahaa

there's always going to be a but uhh.

Nothing's perfect

Imperfect is the new perfect.

never look for perfection cause you'd spend all of your life looking for one 

and still fail. 

omg the baristas here were high i guess. 

ciaoz.