Issues

So and here we're back to the same thing again.

Woke up to her sleeping beside
Her breath,
Her moans,
everything's so near, so close
so safe.

Didn't know...
of all the stuffs we both been chasing and wanting..
we found them in each other.
Isn't this what we've always wanted?

Please don't ruin this up?
It's like the sweetest thing ever happened to me.
and I don't wanna stop
I just can't do it....

Just finished 'dream-hunting'
now i know the reason why you ain't there.
the dreams were connected.
and it's really scary...
I don't know how to put it up to you.
and I really don't want them to happen...

诶，
我累了，
不要再这样了好吗？
就相信我这样下去就可以了。
答应我了就不要随便说当作你辜负我算了。
我怎样都不觉得你是这种随便承诺的人。

这样简单幸福不就好了吗？
继续期待下去好吗？
还有很多很棒的惊喜要来的咯。

还有，
我想当你的专属听众

梦若和你的一切都是梦
那为何我会心动

Come on,
everybody feels this some times.
Relationship ain't easy,
it's about compromise, getting up, and learning together.
Being in a relationship is hard and committing is hard as well
but
when it comes to the right person everything become so easy and simple.
So please,
stop thinking,
leave everything to me.
and no, i'm not the same as everybody else.
You'll eventually know that.
We can have a very simple day everyday alright?
=)

Lucky

It's Jyen's birthday.
Bought a polo tee from Giordano for him. heh

Was busy for the whole day.
Woke up so late cause we facetime-ed till late night,
like
so late so late.
hahah.

Today's kind of a big day
i'm went back in to the kitchen.
HAHAHA.
so freaking hilarious.
I'm gonna cook porridge for her.
It's my first time cooking porridge and I'm really silly
wrong portion of rice,
but good thing it came out just like how she liked...
=) ?

She was supposed to join me for jyen's birthday celebration
but meh
bummers, bummers everywhere.
The party went out smooth tho, hah.

Went to her house again to chat for a lil and end up
letting her brothers waited beside without us noticing.
phew, good thing everything's still fine and i'm still alive. hah

She wanted to sleep earlier and I was out of internet connection
Can't really facetime her =(
I love it when she tweets, cause it's only me, and just me.
I wanna know what she's thinking
I guess, yesterday, she's kind of happy.
Me too,
everything's simple and sweet.

Talked to R for like 2 hours. credits gone again T.T
this time, we talked a lot about ourselves,
loads of thoughts running in and out
I'm glad she's always there when I needed someone to talk to.
She said I deserve someone much better, for like xInfinity times.
yeah
maybe I really deserve someone better? Or...
I could just pick someone I really cared about and cared about me..
and we could still be happy.
That's what I thought and I believed.
Annnnnddd that's how I pissed her off. HAHA
Sorry R.

But,
I still don't know what she shipped over and please
no more expensive gifts please T.T

Then,
eewen called, asking if I was emotional or not,
after, telling me how a bastard almost made her bumped into him. HAHA
Kay I was drinking I was speeding but
I know my limits and I didn't run off them,
not this time I'm sure.
Drove for all night long, bumped into 3 road blocks. Hahah.

喂，
不要想太多好吗？
我只想好好对你好，　
请你不要怀疑我，
因为我的心真的交给你了。

这几天都很简单很幸福不是吗？
就这样继续下去好吗？

For the n times,
you know i love you,
and
you're really lucky.
me too
right?

I'm tired, 

exhausted. 

I wanna go to somewhere else

Start all over again perhaps. 

This dream is killing me.


It's funny how that one person can either make or break your day,
like really.





And yes,
overthinking sucks
but I wouldn't have, if I had a choice.
Or
I can stop myself to do so.

I think, maybe, I fell in love
with your patterns and
inconsistencies.
Love the way you moan on your
way to sleep, and
the way your heart beats.

I want to be your heartbeat
just to be that much
closer to you,
living there inside your chest,
making a home
in your heart.

Waking up to sunshine is nice,
but I guess,
waking up to your smile is like
having sunshine in
my bed every morning ,
warmth radiating from your side
of the bed.

And I would love to make you
a regular thing.
facetime or pillow talk in the evenings,
to the night,
waking you up in the morning
making everyday
as stunning and simple
like those we used to have.

Take me in small doses,
and I'll take you
all at once.

Teehee

I wish today never ends. 

Simple life, simply you 

Thank you. 

Maybe I know the reason behind le

you just forgot that you'd 

told that to me before. 

Hahahaha

Doesn't matter

I hope everyday can be as simple as these two days.

xx

I keep a lot of shit to myself cause I know in reality, 

no one would give a fuck. 

I'm really tired saying I'm fine, everything's fine 

Lol. It's not fine at all. 

I hope this time, not all girls love a bad boy.

I hate how tumblr can make me feel so god damned depressed.

I don't want that dream to come true. 

I'm really, really sad. 

Ok. End of post. Good night

Finally?

Great day, simple life.

I realized, what you actually want for, can be so easy. 

so easy to be achieved. 

When you don't complicate stuffs, things get so clear and simple. 

That's what happened today. 

Was supposed to go jogging with her + dim sum

aaaannnnnnnddddd it's goneeee

Hahaha. She's really cute. We went to disted instead in the morning.

She has to return the student ID and i have to get my exam slip.

0198.

Good luck yi jun, don't screw up this time. 

Then, managed finish up 1 and half chapter of law in Borders. 

Met yeeheng and a new friend jing ye. LOL. 

Meanwhile, she went to her piano class.

She came to meet me afterwards, and 

'kind of' 

told me the savings+investment plans she's working on. 

hahaha. that funny moment when she's not certain of what she's talking about

and we end up laughing. HAHA. 

She's now a secretary of Vena, woots. 

We're gonna learn a lot from each other. 

Dome for dinner. Spaghetti wasn't as good as it should be, 

but never mind. 

She had a chocolate muffin. we shared one cause it's fattening

everything's fattening to her as long as it's food. 

hahha. 

Went to grab some items for her card to her mom's birthday. 

that's really sweet. 

Ok. this is getting long but

hey, i know i'm lucky. at least, i know right now. 

you're right. 

I'm sorry for being really immature these days. 

I felt really safe back then. In the car. 

It's like everything's just both of us. 

And we got each other's back. 

Thank you. 

I was really clueless when you don't answer.

But at least today, everything's clear once again. 

xx

Day One Entry: Oct 1, 2012

Wait

Are you still going to be there to make my day if I need someone to do so?

The feelings…
Is it still there?
Are you holding yourself just to wait for awhile more?
I miss the moment when everything's just plain simple.

Sometimes I feel like a dumb.

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