Breakeven

It sucks that
I'm all choked up here
but you're absolutely fine and having fun.

How do you even do that
I just don't, get it at all.

Fall

Rough week
Rough day
Rough me.

I need to stop all these negative thoughts
and pick myself back up

Shitty stuffs just happened continuously now.

ugh why do I have to face all these people
all of you.

Fuck me
Fuck my life.

Loser

So it's been 6 months
or more
Reading back the last few posts
I've been failing on my promise

好久没回来这里了
也许是因为太忙了吗
还是忽略了

这几个月来
每一天都是打拼的一天
你也一样
都在努力奋斗
不知不觉
都有两年了吧

老实说
在爱情里
我真的是个大输家
不知道怎么的
就一直这样的

对不起
我真的没有安全感
输了太多次
麻木了 累了
够了

是时间  还是
距离出卖了俩之间的感情
我不懂

这一次
我可以不要输了吗

Can I pick up all these confidant I have for work
and put some back into my relationship life?

1/365

First of 2015. 

2014 has been amazing. 

I couldn't list out every single lessons that I've learnt 

and experienced throughout the year. 

It's just too much to go through. 

Overall,

I've learnt to appreciate more at the little things that are around me, 

to cherish every single things that's given, 

to remember to give back, 

and more importantly,

to give up when needed to. 

I've been blessed for everything that happened, 

and everyone that were there for me 

2015, 

Let's do it. 

P.S: I promise I'll write more 

Long Night

It's a long night today. 
Everything just seems like it's just happened yesterday 
The memories were so new 

I wonder how long will this take me 
and how long can I cope with it 

It's so hard to be in one and to maintain it 
the commitments were burdening me

Is there some way that I can stop dealing with this 
for once 
and maybe, 
for all 

I need to breathe. 
You're killing me 
from inside. 

=( 

10 / 10

Wish I could do more for you

Please stay strong,
I will be right here
whenever you need me.

I'll be your support behind.

x

Day One Entry: Sep 1, 2014

World dumbest wife.

Yay.

XX